Friday, October 10, 2008

Finding my self lost

Hey so I haven't typed anything on this for along while and well I am in the mood of procrastinating I figured I should at least try and do something that will make me feel better and maybe sort out some thoughts as I think through these past few weeks.
I can't remember what has happened since the last time i posted which i believe was in the first week of school? I have been back in school for bit more then a month and although I had some struggles seeing were God was going to use me I know have a clearer direction for the year. besides work and school I am starting an internship at Joe's Place that requires of me to become a small group leader/mentor to three other guys that are entering into a leadership in training program that I have been giving the opportunity to lead. Also I am co-leading a small group with in my dorm and it looks like i will be the Friday night male ministry leader at joes place. God has answered my prayers to use me in leadership again. I am excited but also afraid mostly of failure.
An issue that is arising though is that I have no pressing desire to complete my school work. Which is a major factor in the life i have here. I need to pray and have others surround me in their prayers that I will be able to become focused in my studies so that I might learn more in order to pass on the knowledge to others and use it my self in my experiences.
Lord I pray that you will not allow me to waste these next few weeks. during the times that i have tried to set aside as reading and work time please let me become focused quickly and learn let me not become distracted with time filler. instead let me have good quality time with people and alone with you and have a strong desire to stay focused on the tasks before me. In you heavenly name amen.

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