Focus

Well here it is my birthday again during this time I really like to reflect back over my "Golden year" of 22 and look forward with anticipation to 23.

This year has been a year of spiritual growth and wrestling with what I believe. It has been a year of Blessings, friends, family, stresses and some stumbles. I really don't know what to say about this past year of my life. I know that I have changed for the better and I am only more excited for the years to come.

The only thing I am disappointed about was I was hoping to have a girlfriend at some point this year. But I learned and glade that it did not happen. Instead I was blessed with many girls that have become more like sisters to me. Which is what I feel I really need rather then a romantic fling that may or may not lead anywhere.

This year I am excited to change my focus from self and instead turn it towards God. Recently I have been thinking how do I love others? and how can I better myself? But know my mind has changed to How do I love God? and how can i serve others?

I have been getting myself down when I am not improving my self. But know I want to change that focus to God and let him improve me. By taking my eyes and mind off of all the desires and lust of my flesh I am turning that focus to God and letting him figure out everything else. The only real challenge is Doing this even in the hard crappy times. That is when i will really need to Turn to God.